maybe it's me. but i have been feeling really useless for reasons i can't explain. i'm too naive? i had always thought our sister school members would be really supportive and i thought i could convince. i was SO wrong. it's either me, or they can't be bothered. i just felt totally invisible.
asking around all the other schools, classmates, friends, seniors, i just get rejected time and again. 'coz it's you' they say. 'coz you existed' if so, how i wish i never did exist. if it would do the band better, do our sales better for our last concert, the sec 4s' last concert with RIMB, i'd rather not exist then. It's really not about the number of tickets i sold or matthew or the sec 3s are selling, but the people i ask and the percentage of rejected replies. of course, it's all part of reality. but somehow, someway, stuff are getting to my head.
